Halcyon Repose

2 Months I give myself to see how much weight I can lose. After the holiday season and being sick for weeks at a time, I have felt absolutely horrible, and I had definitely put on the pounds. I am not doing anything too drastic, just a few small changes. Smaller portions, very limited sweets, no caffeine (IE sodas), no eating after 10pm, and limited amounts of fried foods. I have also gotten back into the habit of running each morning, I am only up to a mile, but any more than that and my knees start bothering me.

The change that I am having the hardest time reconciling (to myself more than anyone else) is I am also taking fat burners. I read up on all of the side effects, and many of my “rules” for the next two months have to do with what is healthy and what is not when taking the fat burners. I really feel like taking them is cheating, so I have set up a few rules for myself. After 2 months I am done (this is what is recommended anyways) and if I stop jogging in the morning, then I stop taking them. I want them to supplement my other activies, I don’t want to feel like I am leaning on them or requiring them.

The good news is that metabolism boost means LOTS of energy. It is amazing how much more I feel like doing when I actually have the energy to do it. The bad news is that I constantly have a quasi caffeine high, like I just had two double shot espressos, my hands are unsteady, and I feel jittery if I am not constantly doing something active. The symptoms are not as bad as they were the first few days, and I am hoping the will lessen even more over the next few days. If they still affect me like this in a few more days, then I will probably cut back on the dosage to see if I react better. I am trying to use these responsibly, and if that means I am constantly reevaluating whether this is a good idea, then so be it.